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I found out last week that my grandmother on my mom’s side is dying. Soon, probably. Some rare and apparently very advanced form of liver cancer. I am speechless.

Wordless in general, apparently, because it’s been several minutes since I typed those sentences up there, and I still don’t know what else to say. I have not seen her since the diagnosis and her unfathomable rapid downhill slide. I saw her a month ago, and she was the same as always, and even though I am planning to go see her on Thursday I don’t want to, because maybe then none of this will be real and she will call to say she’s dropping by to see the baby on the way to a doctor’s appointment, just like she has done for the past 7 months.

Still more minutes, and still no words. I’m cashing in a picture until I find some.

admiring


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  1. oh honey. I am so so so sorry for you and your family. That anything would be that fast and that powerful is horrible. Thursday will be hard and I will be thinking of you.
    Praying for your GM.
    xo

  2. I am so sorry, hon. Holding you and your family in the light. That is fast and scary. There really are no words. And I know what you mean about not wanting to see her. I was like that, too.

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