I found out last week that my grandmother on my mom’s side is dying. Soon, probably. Some rare and apparently very advanced form of liver cancer. I am speechless.
Wordless in general, apparently, because it’s been several minutes since I typed those sentences up there, and I still don’t know what else to say. I have not seen her since the diagnosis and her unfathomable rapid downhill slide. I saw her a month ago, and she was the same as always, and even though I am planning to go see her on Thursday I don’t want to, because maybe then none of this will be real and she will call to say she’s dropping by to see the baby on the way to a doctor’s appointment, just like she has done for the past 7 months.
Still more minutes, and still no words. I’m cashing in a picture until I find some.